“And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl.”
This book made me need immense therapy. And that’s all I’ll say on the matter
Sadie is a nineteen-year-old girl who has been raising her little sister, thirteen-year-old Mattie since Claire, their drug-addicted absent mother left them. The love Sadie had for her sister was indescribable, and without her, the world was bleak and colorless. When Sadie learns of her sister’s murder, she snaps and set out to find her sister’s murderer and to kill him.
West McCray is a radio personality who has been enlisted by Sadie’s surrogate grandmother for help. When he first begins, he believes there is no case. After all, girls go missing all the time. He starts a serialized podcast, detailing the events and clues he finds while trying to find Sadie. But the farther he goes, he realizes her story is much more complicated and messy than he could have ever imagined.
This book is not an easy read. It is a chilling thriller that will keep you up at night. It is truly haunting and will stay with you long after you finish it. Essentially this is a story of grief, and what loss can drive a person to do. But it is also a story of sisterly devotion, but one that is clouded in mystery and guilt and anger.
This book switches between Sadie’s voice West’s voice. We see both of the horrors they uncover as they find them and their reactions to them as well. Something awesome about this book is just how angry Summers lets Sadie be. Too often we read books where if the females have any kind of unsavory emotion, it must be repressed beyond all measure, but this does the complete opposite. In fact, it takes that stereotype and smashes it against the wall.
The way Summers writes emotion and the human flaw is just breathtaking. It shows the darker side of humans and just how some of them can go.
“I can’t take another dead girl.”
I’m not sure I’ll ever be over Sadie or if I’ll ever stop thinking about it. But this is easily one of my new favorite books and I’ll definitely be looking for more of This author’s books.
TW: Pedophilia, child sexual abuse, parental neglect, mentions and descriptions of substance abuse.